Hindsight is 2020

I know so many of us cannot wait to bid farewell to 2020. But, honestly, not all of 2020 was bad.

I’m seeing a lot of Facebook and Instagram posts the past few days of people looking back over the year and I thought I would do the same. I’m going to share with you just a few things I’ve learned, or rather been reminded of during this crazy year.

Lessons and Reminders during 2020

God is good all the time. Even in a year with a pandemic. I have known all my life that God is good and that He is good all the time. There were times this year though where I really wondered and wanted to ask “God, what is your plan here? What are we to learn?” More specifically, what am I to learn?

When states went on lockdown and people were being quarantined, events were being cancelled one-by-one and jobs were lost, I not only wanted God to show me something, but I also looked at the situation and tried to see what it allowed me to do. What does this event cancellation or job loss make possible?

God will always provide. For a good solid year prior to losing my job, God had been speaking to me about starting a business here on the farm. Every time I would leave for work, I had knots in my stomach and wished I had a job I could do from home. I would pray that the Lord would one day provide for us and allow me to do so. But, I felt like I had no time to really work on preparing and implementing the tools needed to start a business here.

The nudging increased and my conversations with my husband were more frequent about my starting a blog and becoming an entrepreneur. I prayed, but somewhere in there I also told God I wasn’t ready yet. God must have felt I was ready and wanted to make sure I had time because He took my full-time job away from me. I didn’t know what to do. It felt as if the rug had been pulled out from underneath me. I was petrified.

But, I had to remind myself that the Lord isn’t going to lead me to do something and then let me go on my own. He is faithful and He will provide. He always has and always will. He provided the job in 2019 when we needed it, but this year He decided it wasn’t something we needed. I have to trust His timing on everything, as difficult as that may be.

Be patient. My family knows that patience is not my strong point. Waiting on God’s timing has been hard. I thought I’d be married by 25. I got married at 36. (You can probably imagine the conversations I had with God regarding His timing on when I would find my husband.) So, waiting on His timing for what was next in the second half of 2020 has been interesting. One night during my Bible reading, I discovered a verse that I don’t think has ever really hit me as hard as it did this year. First Thessalonians 5:24 says “He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.”

If God calls me to do something, He’s going to be faithful in walking me through it when I have no idea what to do or where to start. So, on top of what I’ve been working on here at the farm, He also provided a part-time job off the farm. I am now working in a bakery, something I never thought I’d do, but something I’ve really been enjoying. Won’t God do it.